Hello again~! :3

First of all, what happened with the introduction last time? It was supposed to be a reference to a game, but it somehow ended up becoming some weird gibberish, and I'm sorry if that confused anyone. I also don't know why it took me 10 days to notice that issue. It definitely was a bit embarrassing, and I hope it won't happen again >.<.

This month I updated my homepage a bit! It wasn't that much, but I hope it doesn't look that boring now ^w^. But now you can also headpat Sophia!! (Something I'm a bit proud of and probably have mentioned too many times already)

Last time I also talked about how I had exams and presentations to do. And I can say that I'm done with them! Though the presentations were kinda awful...
For context, I had to do two 15 min. Presentations (while learning for the exams), and hold them on two subsequent days (thankfully one week after the exams). Because I couldn't decide on a topic for both of them until like a week before the presentations (Yeah I suck at picking topics when you have free choice), I started working on the presentations rather late. And that meant working all day on the presentations, without any free time (except breaks), and it sucked... I'm not really good with stress, and it was hard and painful.
And then I had to present them. Both should've been around 15 minutes. The first one I completed in only 5 minutes, while the second one was around 10 minutes. So yeah, not that great... I was also really nervous with both of them. I did probably get a good grade (according to what the professor said), so that's good. But I still can't believe that I planned a 15-minute presentation, and it only went 5 minutes. In my experience presentations are shorter presenting them than practicing them, but never was it this short...

Currently I'm writing a story again (yay!), featuring my cute foxgirl Sophia!! Hopefully this time it'll actually see the light of day. Until now, whenever I tried working on a story, I had the idea and worked on planning it. But when it came into actually writing it, I had some plotholes I didn't know how to fill, and I also got demotivated because of it and at some point I thought my idea wouldn't really work out and then abandoned it. The project I teased a bit on in the first journal entry was also a story, which I later that month scraped. I hope that it'll be different this time, and that I'll actually finish something ^w^. I still need to think a bit on the presentation side (as in how it'll look like on the site), but I think that won't be a huge issue~.

Lastly, I'll go to a bigger family event (around 50 people if I remember correctly?) in a few days in girl clothes, and most people there don't know that I'm a girl, so I guess it'll be interesting? I mean I also don't know most people there, and maybe they don't know me, and maybe I'll pretend that I was always a girl (which is true). But some people who saw me before may be surprised that I'm a girl... I hope I won't steal the spotlight, but yeah, it'll be interesting...

And I think that's about it. For some reason it still feels like there hasn't been that much happening over the last month. Yeah I know it's a strange feeling I have, and I don't know where it really comes from.
It feels like I wasn't able to work that much on this site this month, though that was probably partly because of the exams. But I do want to keep working on the site next month, and I still have many plans on what to do. Though I don't really have a clear vision for the site yet, but I guess I don't need one, right?

Have a beautiful day or night! <3

This month was a bit...uneventful? I mean, I guess it's kinda normal for January to be a bit uneventful, but it does kinda bug me...

First of all, I HIT 2,000 VISITS?? Thank you everyone for that! This definitely was a huge surprise for me. I also bought a domain this month! I always wanted to have one, and I finally did make it happen!!

Another surprise I had this month was when Pudding made some fanart of my OC Sophia! I was really happy, and so I made fanart of their OC as well, and they were also really happy with it! ^w^ Both are cute, so you should check them out! :3

Other than that, there hasn't been much happening IRL. Currently it's exam phase for me, so I have some studying to do and some exams to write in a few days, but not too much. I'm not that scared of the exams themselves, but more about the presentations I have to give... Just thinking about it already gives me anxiety... i haven't even started working on them yet... sigh...

One issue that I still have is that I want to share some things of my life, but I don't know how much I can share and at what point it'd be oversharing and bad. I'm relatively new to this, so I guess I just need more experience with it?

Also I've been thinking of starting to write more regularly instead of only monthly in this journal. It'd probably be about random topics or things that come up in my mind, and they'd be in a separate blog part here. I still need to think about how I want to design it though.

Otherwise, I'll still work on this site, and I still have ideas on what to add. For one it'd be more things similar to the songs i like page (which will get more songs I promise), and other fun things as well!

And I think that's it for January! I hope you had a great time reading this, and have a great day or night~! :3

Happy New Year everyone! I thought it'd be nice to have a little journal on my site, and I thought it'd be nice to start with things I look forward to this year!

This year I plan to progress in my transition and to do legal transition and finally start HRT. Initially I wanted to wait a bit more with legal transition, but since we have elections soon, and one of the parties planning to undo the law that makes it much easier to legal transition, I'm a bit pressured now to do it very soon. I mean I'm a bit scared of reactions from others (like doctors), since I still don't look like a girl, but I hope that won't be a huge issue, and I don't think they'd say something negative about it, right? At least my therapist doesn't think so, so I guess I should be fine. I also hope to finally start HRT this year! I hope it won't take me too long to get a appointment and get it prescribed (I already have a therapist, so that's done), but you never know, especially with doctors...

In regards to social transition, I'd come out to the rest of the family (right now I'm only out to my close family, some relatives, and my uni) and I also really hope that they'll start to use the right pronounces and don't use the word "boys" anymore when refering to me and relatives/family. Like it's nice that they at least use my real name, but I'm a girl, and I want to be referred to as such, and not be seen as "one of the boys". And I also really hate hearing "he" >_<. It makes me feel like they don't see me as a girl, and I guess that's something that often fuels my dysphoria.

And I also hope that I can make more new friends this year! I mean, currently my social life is non-existant, with not having anyone I could call a friend, and being isolated in general, and it's all making me feel very lonely and depressing and sad... But I don't want to go further into this topic today.

I also want to keep working on this site and add more things to it. I also have some plans that involve my OCs, which I'm also currently working on, and I hope to share it soon, so keep an eye on it~!

Thanks for reading this entry, and I hope you'll have a great start for this year~! :3