Another month, another journal entry I guess. This time a bit earlier, but I hope it's not a problem~ (Thanks for the 5k 6k visits btw!!) (Also today's daylight saving, and I love daylight savings...)

As I already mentioned in the last entry, I was at a bigger family event, and first time going with more feminine clothes than usual. And well... I guess it was the same as usual? Maybe I had my expectations too high (probably that), but it was as if nothing was different. What kinda surprised me was how little I got misgendered. Only twice! Sure not many people talked to me, but I'd say it was still a success! Otherwise I was sitting alone the whole time during the "party" (do you call family gathering in a restaurant a party?) and bored, but somehow I survived it~ ^w^.

Then there was Miku day (which I thankfully didn't forget this year~ ^w^, unlike the years before), and I drew Miku! You can see it here if you want to. I guess there's not much special to it?

A few weeks after that family event came another family gathering, but this time a bit smaller. It was at a restaurant, and for some reason they played the same few songs there every few minutes. Like I don't know how often I was forced to listen to Binding Lights or that other song which name I don't know. And there was that one photographer who always bothered me with his camera and shutter sound and just his presence alone. Like I generally feel a bit awkward in front of a camera (maybe because I'm trans and not happy with my body yet? Or the feeling of people watching at these pictures forever?), and when someone walks around with a camera all the time, it just makes me uneasy. But one thing that was kinda interesting was hearing how one of the person, after my parents explained him me being trans, that he knew a relative who was trans guy, which was interesting to learn that there's at least one person in our family who's also trans, even though he's farther related and I'll probably never meet him.

This month I was kinda obsessed with Minecraft for some reason? And for some reason I also decided to build a statue of Sophia in my world!

Oh, and I also finally made a skin based on Sophia, including real fox ears and tail!

If you've noticed in the pictures, I already made a statue of Ookami Mio in the past, and I don't know why I did it, but I guess I did. (I guess I just like her design, okay? And she has a great voice. And I even have a figure of her, because she looked so cute. But I don't really watch VTubers anymore.)
One thing you'd also notice is that I planted many cherry trees there. And that was harder that you'd realize. First of all the trees would grow in the wrong direction, blocking the view or path. So I'd need to remove them, wait until the leaves have gone, and then try again. But what was even more bad was the whole pink petals that are on the ground. Because yes, they don't grow with the trees, you have to plant them yourself. And also gather them. At first, I used bonemeal directly on them, but that was really inefficient. Then I found out you can get them while using bonemeal on grass in a cherry biome, so I quickly designed & build a farm to make new pink petals, which was much faster and much more efficient (though there are probably more efficient farms - I just was too lazy to look for a tutorial and designed one myself). But nonetheless I'm happy with the end result~ :>.

And at the end of the month my semester break ended, so now I have uni again. And the first week was...same as usual? Like nothing has really changed for me, which I kinda find boring? Though at the same time nothing has gone worse, which I guess is a plus.

As for the story, I'm still working on it, and can't say when the first chapter will be published. Well it'd definitely be released when it's done, but currently there are still many things to work on there, so it could still take some time. Though I'd say the first chapter is pretty much done writing, but I still need to work on the presentation of it. I have a unique idea of how to present it (well maybe it's not that unique), and I really hope it'll work out. But there are still some things to do there.

I also completed Maho Girls Precure and also finally Magilumiere after letting that sit for a while. Magilumiere had a nice concept, but I found the end to be a bit rushed. Though it has a second season announced, so it'd be interesting to see how that'll turn out. As for Maho Girls, I'd say it's currently my favorite Precure (though I haven't seen that many yet), and I could write many things about it here, but this entry is already too long, so I'd probably make a seperate blog or miniblog entry about it~.

And now let's end this entry with a song (because why not): Reminiscence by technoplanet. It takes place in a café and it's about nostalgia and looking at the past. The word Reminiscence means to look back at memories and experiences, and I think the song does it in a cute way. Like, without going too much in-depth to the lyrics, how the song uses black and sweetened coffee to symbolize not being ready with adulthood, or one line where the singer talks about wanting to feel excited about mundane tasks like buying bananas at the supermarket. The song also gives off a nice café atmosphere, and I kinda find it a shame how it's not really known.

And that's it! Have a nice day or night~ ☆

Hello again~! :3

First of all, what happened with the introduction last time? It was supposed to be a reference to a game, but it somehow ended up becoming some weird gibberish, and I'm sorry if that confused anyone. I also don't know why it took me 10 days to notice that issue. It definitely was a bit embarrassing, and I hope it won't happen again >.<.

This month I updated my homepage a bit! It wasn't that much, but I hope it doesn't look that boring now ^w^. But now you can also headpat Sophia!! (Something I'm a bit proud of and probably have mentioned too many times already)

Last time I also talked about how I had exams and presentations to do. And I can say that I'm done with them! Though the presentations were kinda awful...
For context, I had to do two 15 min. Presentations (while learning for the exams), and hold them on two subsequent days (thankfully one week after the exams). Because I couldn't decide on a topic for both of them until like a week before the presentations (Yeah I suck at picking topics when you have free choice), I started working on the presentations rather late. And that meant working all day on the presentations, without any free time (except breaks), and it sucked... I'm not really good with stress, and it was hard and painful.
And then I had to present them. Both should've been around 15 minutes. The first one I completed in only 5 minutes, while the second one was around 10 minutes. So yeah, not that great... I was also really nervous with both of them. I did probably get a good grade (according to what the professor said), so that's good. But I still can't believe that I planned a 15-minute presentation, and it only went 5 minutes. In my experience presentations are shorter presenting them than practicing them, but never was it this short...

Currently I'm writing a story again (yay!), featuring my cute foxgirl Sophia!! Hopefully this time it'll actually see the light of day. Until now, whenever I tried working on a story, I had the idea and worked on planning it. But when it came into actually writing it, I had some plotholes I didn't know how to fill, and I also got demotivated because of it and at some point I thought my idea wouldn't really work out and then abandoned it. The project I teased a bit on in the first journal entry was also a story, which I later that month scraped. I hope that it'll be different this time, and that I'll actually finish something ^w^. I still need to think a bit on the presentation side (as in how it'll look like on the site), but I think that won't be a huge issue~.

Lastly, I'll go to a bigger family event (around 50 people if I remember correctly?) in a few days in girl clothes, and most people there don't know that I'm a girl, so I guess it'll be interesting? I mean I also don't know most people there, and maybe they don't know me, and maybe I'll pretend that I was always a girl (which is true). But some people who saw me before may be surprised that I'm a girl... I hope I won't steal the spotlight, but yeah, it'll be interesting...

And I think that's about it. For some reason it still feels like there hasn't been that much happening over the last month. Yeah I know it's a strange feeling I have, and I don't know where it really comes from.
It feels like I wasn't able to work that much on this site this month, though that was probably partly because of the exams. But I do want to keep working on the site next month, and I still have many plans on what to do. Though I don't really have a clear vision for the site yet, but I guess I don't need one, right?

Have a beautiful day or night! <3

This month was a bit...uneventful? I mean, I guess it's kinda normal for January to be a bit uneventful, but it does kinda bug me...

First of all, I HIT 2,000 VISITS?? Thank you everyone for that! This definitely was a huge surprise for me. I also bought a domain this month! I always wanted to have one, and I finally did make it happen!!

Another surprise I had this month was when Pudding made some fanart of my OC Sophia! I was really happy, and so I made fanart of their OC as well, and they were also really happy with it! ^w^ Both are cute, so you should check them out! :3

Other than that, there hasn't been much happening IRL. Currently it's exam phase for me, so I have some studying to do and some exams to write in a few days, but not too much. I'm not that scared of the exams themselves, but more about the presentations I have to give... Just thinking about it already gives me anxiety... i haven't even started working on them yet... sigh...

One issue that I still have is that I want to share some things of my life, but I don't know how much I can share and at what point it'd be oversharing and bad. I'm relatively new to this, so I guess I just need more experience with it?

Also I've been thinking of starting to write more regularly instead of only monthly in this journal. It'd probably be about random topics or things that come up in my mind, and they'd be in a separate blog part here. I still need to think about how I want to design it though.

Otherwise, I'll still work on this site, and I still have ideas on what to add. For one it'd be more things similar to the songs i like page (which will get more songs I promise), and other fun things as well!

And I think that's it for January! I hope you had a great time reading this, and have a great day or night~! :3

Happy New Year everyone! I thought it'd be nice to have a little journal on my site, and I thought it'd be nice to start with things I look forward to this year!

This year I plan to progress in my transition and to do legal transition and finally start HRT. Initially I wanted to wait a bit more with legal transition, but since we have elections soon, and one of the parties planning to undo the law that makes it much easier to legal transition, I'm a bit pressured now to do it very soon. I mean I'm a bit scared of reactions from others (like doctors), since I still don't look like a girl, but I hope that won't be a huge issue, and I don't think they'd say something negative about it, right? At least my therapist doesn't think so, so I guess I should be fine. I also hope to finally start HRT this year! I hope it won't take me too long to get a appointment and get it prescribed (I already have a therapist, so that's done), but you never know, especially with doctors...

In regards to social transition, I'd come out to the rest of the family (right now I'm only out to my close family, some relatives, and my uni) and I also really hope that they'll start to use the right pronounces and don't use the word "boys" anymore when refering to me and relatives/family. Like it's nice that they at least use my real name, but I'm a girl, and I want to be referred to as such, and not be seen as "one of the boys". And I also really hate hearing "he" >_<. It makes me feel like they don't see me as a girl, and I guess that's something that often fuels my dysphoria.

And I also hope that I can make more new friends this year! I mean, currently my social life is non-existant, with not having anyone I could call a friend, and being isolated in general, and it's all making me feel very lonely and depressing and sad... But I don't want to go further into this topic today.

I also want to keep working on this site and add more things to it. I also have some plans that involve my OCs, which I'm also currently working on, and I hope to share it soon, so keep an eye on it~!

Thanks for reading this entry, and I hope you'll have a great start for this year~! :3